Ok self, we need to clear up a few things. Every so often I catch you thinking about yourself as this passionate yet vanilla type person who aims to please those around you. It is time to stop it, wake up and embrace who you have become on a more regular basis. Don’t get me wrong, I know how far you have come. I know who you were, what you have been through and milestones you have already crossed over like a champ. But you are not owning who you are on a day to day basis.
I know that you thought to yourself, if I get more power and confidence in my work place that will bring my life together in a beautiful symphony, rich with harmony that you desire. And well, time is up. You have attained what you needed at work. You have your validation. Your last hurdle you set for yourself in the way of self improvement has been made. Now it is time to leave the excuses outside. To embrace life, to enjoy who you are, with your amazing partner.
The time to revert back to that vanilla mentality is over. You are far from that monogamous wallflower that you were in your youth. You have thoroughly enjoyed threesomes, experimented with a few foursomes and even explored swinger club or two. These are not just notches on your belt. This is who you are. The explorer. The pusher of boundaries, that only child who hates the word no, and wants to explore that world full of yes with the confidence that has been earned through hard work and self exploration.
Vanilla is not bad. It just isn’t who you are. Maybe it never was, and you were living in fear. But you are not anymore. 2016 has come with countless challenges and there are more on their way. You have come this far, and you are not giving up. You are living. You are present. And you are breaking those societal norms one item at a time. Because that is who you are. It is who you enjoy being. And baby, you deserve it.