I went into the New Year with a strange optimism that things simply had to be better than they were last year. My actual New Years Eve was incredible, and if I’m honest, came as a complete surprise (no pun intended). And thus, I felt a confidence that this, in fact would be my best year yet. Sitting here, 2 weeks in, I am not quite sure how I am feeling about anything.
One of my friends aptly pointed out that there is still plenty of time for the year to be an incredible turning point for us, and perhaps there is “just a bit of rubble and debris to clear away first!”. I’m not sure quite how I ended up with such wise and amazing friends, but here I sit, re-reading that text over and over. Clearing out the remnants of last year, is so visceral and quite frankly a perfect way of describing this weird place I find myself in.
My solo Christmas was my time to fall back in love with my book. And I am proud to say that I am on draft 3! It’s an accomplishment that I am so incredibly proud of, and yet, it is still so challenging to read, edit, and feel all the things that experienced in my last relationship. It just hasn’t gotten easier. And I find myself inexplicably raw, and caught up in … just the feelings of it all. Enter in my New Years commitment to Yoga and stretching as a daily practice.
I am committed to doing the 30 day yoga challenge, with the ultimate goal of having yoga just be my daily norm. There would be weeks at a time last year, where I was just too drained, busy, or unmotivated to move my body. 2022 has really been my year to change that. While there was one day, I did not complete my practice due to a complete emotional breakdown, I still put in a solid effort to do most of it. I don’t think I even came close to having this great a track record at any point of physical activity in the past. After about 5 days in a row, my motivation wanes, or I tell myself that I deserve to take that break. Which, often turns into a cycle, and rarely is just one day off.
Shockingly, to me anyways, I have written almost every day since just before Christmas. While, my publications have been a little less active, there is so much in the works, behind the scenes that I was actually a little shocked to see the date of my last blog post. A Canadian sorry to all of those who have been waiting for updates on my life! Haha. This year will be a continuation of growth, learning, and ultimately, completing some incredibly intense projects that I have on the go. My hopes of course are that my love life will finally come into fruition, but… if I’ve learned anything from last year, forcing anything is just not my reality. All I can do is try, be authentic, and allow my heart to do what it does best (any guesses what that is?).
So to all of you, I truly hope you ended 2021 in good health, spirits, and with a optimistic outlook for 2022. If we all work together, we can learn from past mistakes, and work towards a brighter, more amazing future! Sending warm thoughts, and well wishes to all!
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